Every story written exposes a piece of its author. Shares part of their soul--sometimes a beautiful part, sometimes a broken part. This isn’t something that is planned, it just happens. When I write a story I’m not sure what part of me will latch onto it, whether it be through character traits or through specific events. It’s always a delicious surprise.
In Mismatched, however, this surprise was more somber. I knew before I started writing that it would involve a woman-to-woman romance, so that wasn’t the part of me that unexpectedly rooted itself in this story. It was the main character’s desire to bear children, and the depression that followed when she realized she never would.
I have one child, a son, but had wanted many more. My body had other plans, though. After my second miscarriage, and my doctor’s affirmation that this would continue to be the result without starting an expensive, arduous fertility regimen, I gave up on my dream of ever bearing another child. I refused to put myself and my family through that process, and decided to be content with the child I’d already been blessed with. For the most part, I’m past the emotional trauma of it, but sometimes it still haunts me.
When I wrote Mismatched, the wounds were fresh. And I didn’t realize that this story would become a catharsis for me until that therapy was already in progress. Being the story is short kind of saved me, in that I didn’t have much room to deepen this part of the main character’s journey. Doing so might have crushed me. It wouldn’t now, but back then? The story might not ever have been finished.
As is, it was just enough to help me confront and conquer my inner demons, alongside this character as she confronted and conquered hers, without diving so deep into the buried emotional trauma that it triggered a new bout of depression.
This is why fiction is so important in our world, not just for the authors but also for the readers. When we share pieces of our soul in a story, it becomes both our story and the character’s story, which in turn helps it connect with the readers so that they can make it their story.
We are telling the readers, “Hey, guess what? I survived this, just like so-and-so is going to survive it in her own way. You can survive it too.”
Have you ever felt like a story was written just for you? Then you know exactly what I’m talking about. If you are an author, have you ever had a similar experience sharing a piece of your soul as you write?
Here is a brief introduction to my new release:
Her plan was simple: Find your life-match and follow your destiny―the heart-stone doesn’t lie.On the night of her initiation ceremony into her chosen clan, Liu'bimec feels a scorching pain from something other than the marking iron. Her heart-stone responds as if her life-match is close. It burns hot within her, ready to bond. But none of the men she approaches induce a heart-stone bond, and if she does not bond with her life-match by the time a year has passed, she will be banished. Her heart-stone had guided her, but was it wrong?
Her questions only multiply when she finally does find her life-match. He is not a he at all, but a she, and if it were known they have bonded, Liu would face something far worse than banishment―an empty life without her match.
EXCERPT:
The flap of my tent opens and a tall, well-muscled man steps in. I freeze. He is handsome, with eyes as pure blue as the surrounding ocean, and spikes of hair blond as sand. His forehead marking healed clean and smooth―the arched, fluffy tail of a Kun’du surrounded by thorny vines. It is a symbol of courage. The same pattern has been sewn into his tunic sleeves. He is a fine artist.
He introduces himself, smiling boyishly as he steps closer. My heart beats hard in my chest, nervous with anticipation, but my heart-stone…my heart-stone is as frozen as the rest of me. Perhaps we aren’t close enough.
I step right up to him, driven by selfish desire, hungry for companionship. He lifts a hand and laces his fingers with mine. His skin still holds the chill from outside. I shudder. His other hand presses against my lower back, nudging our bodies closer. There is nothing but fabric between our skins.
And still, no heat. He isn’t my match.
Realization melts over his face. Embarrassed, we push away from each other and I wrap my arms around myself. This emptiness within feels like the breath of Winter herself.
I apologize and ask him to leave. He offers a smile laced with regret, then obliges.
There are plenty of other available men, Mother would say, but it is no comfort. I cry until my throat is swollen and raw, my eyes puffy and stinging with salt. I’ve forgotten what it is like to fall asleep without tears.
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Lydia Sharp is a novelist and short fiction author who still believes in fairy tales. She lives in Ohio but often visits other worlds through the magic of books. Fortunately these other worlds have Wi-Fi, so Lydia can be reached at any time via email, Twitter, or Facebook. For contact details and a complete list of Lydia's writing credits, visit her blog.













